The Good Wolf Community Submission #2

True to form, I’ve once again procrastinated updating the blog. I could blame the month of trading colds and flus with my son where I was incapacitated with illness, or I could attribute the delay to the holiday season, but let’s be honest- I’m uploading works already completed by OTHER PEOPLE. There is truly no excuse. But, on that note, it’s the 27th of December and we are fast-approaching a New Year. And what is a New Year but a serendipitous time to channel our hopes and dreams into resolutions and goals. The first on my list of intentions will be to stop procrastinating. So with that, let’s all be hopeful for my success, so that you can peruse the literary submissions of our Good Wolf community on a more regular basis. Now, let me introduce you to our second submission, from the local writer Kirk McDougall, originally submitted to the Port Coquitlam Flash Fiction contest in 2020, Kirk won Second Runner Up! The contest was a collaborative effort with the City of Port Coquitlam and Western Sky Books. I had the pleasure of attending an anniversary function for Western Sky Books. Owner Tamara is an integral part of the community and supports local businesses and artists, providing such a warm and welcoming space with books stacked to the ceiling and beautiful local paintings and creations. I had the pleasure of serving coffee, and beautifully decorate cookies were provided by Cassandra Cake Co. I sat listening to local authors and poets share their works, filled with gratitude to be a part of this local, female forward event. So please enjoy Kirk’s PoCo based action-adventure spy story. In his words, “I love to see people Smile.”

You can find more of Kirk’s work at the links below.

https://twitter.com/KDMcDougall

https://kdmcdougall.ca

https://www.facebook.com/KDMcDougallAuthor

The Package by Kirk McDougall

An explosion shattered the apartment door. As smoke billowed in, Angie secured the package, ran out onto the balcony, six floors above ground, and jumped. As she flew over the railing, her hand shot out and grabbed the rope, ever at the ready. Once the line was taut, it swung her back toward the building into the apartment below. Feet first, she burst through the door, spraying glass throughout the room. It was vacant, a stroke of luck.

Angie popped her head out the hallway door and heard footsteps in the stairwell to the left. It forced her to go right, toward the elevator. To confuse her pursuers and buy precious seconds, she pressed the down button and continued to the stairwell. They would expect her to go down, so she went up. At the top, she burst through the door and ran across the roof. A twenty-foot gap between buildings loomed in front of her. She jumped and landed with only her toes touching the ledge. Twirling her arms kept her balance.

“On the roof,” yelled one of the agents.

A shot rang out. It was easier to explain a private investigator who had fallen off a roof than one with bullet holes in her, so they had aimed at the ledge. It shattered, and Angie fell. She grabbed at each of the balconies as she plummeted. Her hands connected a few times. It slowed her momentum enough that she could stop by grabbing the second-floor railing, but it slammed her into the side of the balcony. The glass held, but the jolt sent a flash of pain through her shoulder. She jumped to the ground, rolled, and came up running. Her shoulder throbbed.

Angie rounded the apartment building corner as bullet spray shattered the wood. With a smile, she climbed into her armoured SUV. Once inside, tires screeched as she sped down Village Drive, skidded onto Sherling, and turned onto Lougheed.

Two trucks chased her. By the time Angie approached the overpass, the red truck had pulled up on her left side. A gun stuck out the passenger window. Angie hit the brakes. The blue pickup was only a few feet behind the SUV and rammed her reinforced bumper. The red overshot and had to go on to the Lougheed Connector. She cranked the wheel to the right, ignored the Wrong Way signs, and bounded over concrete barriers through the fast-food parking lot.

Angie’s SUV shot out onto the Lougheed Connector heading south. The red truck had turned off of the highway and was going north. She skidded into a right turn, and back onto Lougheed. The blue pickup was still trying to get the engine started. The red was going the wrong way. Angie had gained a few seconds, but by the time she turned left onto Shaughnessy, the red truck had found her. He was right on her tail as they sped under Kingsway. She skidded around the corner onto Wilson. With her foot to the floor, she still couldn’t shake the guy. He pulled up beside her. The passenger pointed his gun out the window as they approached the Rec Centre.

Angie cranked the wheel hard to the right. It took her up the path and past the library. The SUV burst through the Rec Centre doors, sending glass shards throughout the foyer. A sharp left and then a right made her vehicle skid to a stop. She jumped out and leaped into the elevator. Safe inside, she pulled up the covert phone app that controlled the elevator’s unique functions. It took her to the secret floor below the ice arena, where she entered an organization known only as The Agency.

Angie strode into the director’s office, a grin on her face. She threw a package onto his desk and said, “Here’s your parcel.”

“Still intact. Unlike our foyer,” said the director.

“Why’s it so important?” Angie ignored the man’s sarcasm.

“It’s a new seed with a yield that’s far better than anything else. We can grow a tremendous amount of food in a small area. The country that owns this seed can feed a spaceship crew on a voyage to Mars or anywhere.”

“A good payday then?” said Angie.

The director shook his head. “By the time I take off money for damages, you’ll have just enough to buy a cheeseburger.”

Angie shrugged.  “Better than last time.”

The Good Wolf Community: Submission #1

The original concept was never a tiny cafe. My plans for the Good Wolf were to have a large inviting space with comfy couches, tables and chairs where patrons would become family while they stayed for hours sipping on lattes, perhaps even a local beverage (I wanted a licensed cafe with local craft beers and ciders on tap) and enjoyed planned events. My ideal cafe would be generous enough to support community events such as open mic nights, live music, poetry readings, readings from local authors, mini Ted talks and more. But sometimes our dreams have to start off small and manageable before they grow into our true vision, and for me the tiny cafe is the perfect start to what I hope will someday become my dream space.

But if you' haven’t stumbled upon this blog page by accident you’ll know that while building the tiny cafe I used the blog to detail my progress, and share in my excitement. However, as the planning stages moved into action and we opened the doors, I found myself busy with the day to day operations of a business on top of my Mom duties and general human habits. So, in spirit of the aforementioned “dream space” I have decided to share my virtual stage with local authors, writers, aspiring writers, and perhaps even musicians, artists and more to come. I’ve put the call out thus far for local writers to submit work that I can share here for your reading pleasure. Please enjoy their work, and perhaps follow along on their social media if their writing is of interest to you. Our first good wolf community submission comes from TikTok. I will do my best to share each submission I receive in the order I receive them. I have written them out in the exact manner I received them, in an effort to preserve the authors intent.

WATER LOGGED

I jumped into the lake

Just to get what was

Left of you off my skin

But the lake water couldn’t reach far enough to wash

You from my mind

Then

I tried to swallow the water

But it passed my heart

And drowned out the butterflies

I then tried to flush you from my eyes

But it only added to the sting

So now here I am floating,

Stomach bloated, eyes stinging,

Waiting for the lake

To swallow me whole

- j.k.

eMbers

When you saw me today

Did you feel the spark again?

Or was it ever there

Maybe I was burning too

Strong to see how you felt

But you kept throwing gasoline

And I took it willingly

As if I was being showered with love

Now I’m just standing here

Embers still burning

Hoping that if I get close

Enough to you that

They would reignite yours

- j.k.

@jaime_sen

HIghs and Lows

Hi Friends,

Wow, what a whirlwind the last couple weeks have been! Guess where I’m writing this post? From the inside of my newly opened tiny cafe! But, that’s jumping ahead, lets go back to January 25th…

On the morning of January 25th I woke eager and ready to tackle my to-do list in preparation for opening day of my tiny cafe. At this point I had passed city inspections, but was awaiting the return of my environmental health officer before my final inspections would be booked. I had a few more loose ends to tie up, supplies to purchase, training to do, but was nearing the finish line. The day prior was a Pro-D Day for my son, so instead of chipping away at the mountain of tasks, we had enjoyed the day at the rink practising our skating skills. But, today was a school day, so as 8:00am approached, we readied ourselves and head to the car.

Life threw a wrench in our productivity plans when we discovered that the passenger window of my vehicle had been smashed. Shortly afterwards, we realised that our neighbours vehicle had also been vandalised. Instead of carting our kids off to school and carrying on with our day, we were both now scrambling to clean up glass, call our insurance companies, find repair shops, and arrange for school transportation for our kids. I immediately felt gutted when I discovered the damage. If you’ve read the last few posts, you’ll know that giving back to the community and treating ALL of our neighbours with kindness and respect is extremely important to me. After giving out gift cards, coats, scarves, gloves and food to our homeless neighbours I was quiet disappointed to find my car in this state. In the days leading up to the incident, I’d had a few different folks sleeping in the space next to my car. After seeing the mess that one group had left, I’d asked the next group to please ensure they cleaned up after themselves. I had mentioned that the group prior had left quite a mess, and that they weren’t welcome unless they were willing to keep the space clean. I suppose they weren’t open to feedback, because the very next day I was cleaning up glass. Although, the worst part of the experience was not my upset, the three hundred dollar deductible, or the wasted days; the worst part was the way it’s changed my son. Since the incident, he’s been terrified. He woke several times in the night the first week, didn’t want to be in a room alone, and to this day mentions the incident and looks for people every time we pull our car into our parking spot. I’m doing my best to ensure him it was a one off, and that most people are kind, wonderful people that would never do anything like that, but he’s still struggling.

However, I did do my best to walk the talk that day, and not let one person’s hurtful actions jade my perspective of the larger population. I raged a little at first, and accosted a group of people exiting the methadone clinic. I recognised one of them from the alcove next to my car, and asked if they knew anything about the damage. I explained we are both single Moms, and have done a lot for the community. One of the guys in the group looked at me and asked if I needed a hug. I broke down crying in his arms, and knew I wouldn’t stay mad for long. While I cleaned up the glass by my car I met a lovely lady in the back alley named Jasmine. We became fast friends as she opened up to me about her struggles; I passed along a few things her way, and we’ve kept in touch since. I can’t help myself, I love to connect with people.

Life is weird though, sometimes on a Tuesday morning your crying and cleaning up glass, and by Friday your fielding requests from the local newspaper. Diane had reached out to me back in December, requesting to do an article in the Tri-Cities News about the cafe. Foolish me had not realised that my Good Wolf emails were not in fact forwarding to my personal email account as I had originally planned, and didn’t see Diane’s message until much later. In the mean time, Jeremy had reached out from Tri-Cities Dispatch asking to do an article as well, by that Thursday I had shared with him the story of me and my little cafe. When I asked Diane if she was still interested, she wasn’t sure if there was a story, but after a very passionate response from me, I had swayed her.

By Monday morning, I had done two newspaper interviews, finished up my to-do list and heard back from my environmental health officer. After passing inspection Tuesday, I placed my first order of baked goods, and opened the doors to The Good Wolf Cafe & Co. on February 2nd, 2022 (02.02.22) at 8:00am for the first time.

My first customer was my good friends Skully (previously mentioned King hot dog slinger of Lully’s Food Experience) and Nolan (Lully’s investor and realtor) that drove all the way out from Abbotsford! I burst into tears when I realised it was them. They enjoyed some coffee, chatted about menu plans and way over-tipped. By 9:00 am I was on the phone with the lovely ladies of Spice Radio 1200 AM chatting about how The Good Wolf Cafe & Co. came to be and how we plan to contribute to the community. The rest of the day was a mix of familiar faces and new friends. I made lots of mistakes, like serving luke-warm Americanos because my hot water breaker blew, and forgetting to put whip cream on hot chocolates- which is a cardinal sin. But overall I had an absolute blast.

Yesterday I celebrated one full week open. I still have lots to learn, but I’m loving coming to work everyday. And much like life there are highs and lows. Today is slower, but I’m making the best of it by catching up on the back-end of things, and planning for menu additions.

I can’t thank everyone enough for the support I’ve received on this journey. I can’t believe how many people have come in to say they read the article in the news and wanted to come support. We’ve reached over 500 followers on Facebook and are nearing 400 on Instagram. There’s no way I know nearly 500 people! It goes to show that spreading positivity perpetuates positivity!

Soon, we’ll be announcing our full menu, and a grand opening celebration. It’s all still surreal to me. I know for some it may seem silly, it’s such a tiny business, but for me it’s been a dream for so long, and I know this is just the beginning. If you’re reading this and you’ve dreamed of opening a business or reaching for some goal that seemed unattainable, please go for it. Because, as Teddy Roosevelt once said “at the best [you’ll] know in the end the triumph of high achievement, and- at the worst, if [you] fail, at least [you] fail while daring greatly, so that [your] place will never be those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.”

Thanks for reading.

Be kind, take care and feed your good wolf!

Jerrica

chasing the sunrise

Hi friends!

I hope you all have had an amazing start to the New Year! So far I’m loving the direction this year is heading. Besides a little week-long sickness set-back (I feel like the entire province was collectively sick), I’m feeling motivated, inspired and ready for adventure. I’ve made a habit of keeping my annual goals (new years resolutions) in my notes section of my phone for the past few years. I’m a rather loose goal setter, as I like to be very gentle with myself so I don’t become discouraged, and so that setting goals never feels like a chore. I usually like to keep my goals hidden until I near success, like opening a cafe, because I always fear failure. However this year, I am daring greatly, so here are my goals:

* Brackets denote goal updates thus far

  1. Get the cafe open, start earning income, paying Mom (cafe should be open in the next month)

  2. Write one blog post a week (I’m a little behind on this thus far, but have been working hard on opening the doors, and feel like the trade off is worth while)

  3. Interview on 3 podcasts (I’ve done one podcast interview already! Check out CEED Pod on Spotify)

  4. Pay all bills on time & put $5000 back in savings (Between buying a condo, renovating it and opening a business I’ve dug into my saving A LOT)

  5. Drink more water, less beer (I’ve started the new year off dry, I’m a craft beer lover, but want to focus on the cafe until the doors open- oh and I’ve been CRUSHING water daily!)

  6. Read 30 mins a day (I’m definitely behind on this- I started off well, but again the cafe has taken over, maybe I’ll read all day and make up for lost time)

  7. Daily workouts (Behind on this one also, but definitely have been moving my body- lots of hockey, started hiking again, nice walks around town, every bit counts)

  8. Lose 15 pounds (or shift it, more muscle, healthier choices- it’s all relative)

  9. Markus Goals: learn to skate, skateboard more, bike ride more, learn to read (more books), finish Harry Potter, two more swimming lessons (this reminds me, I should book swimming lessons!)

  10. Travel somewhere new (If restrictions lift I’m thinking Bali…)

  11. Donate at least $1000 through the cafe (I think we can do better than this, but start small, reach high- I’ll need everyone’s help for this one!)

  12. Cleanse yourself of negative ties, focus on the ones that matter (focusing on surrounding myself with people that feed my good wolf; positive vibes only)

So those are my goals. I hope sharing them will help keep me accountable. I’ve really been making a concerted effort to reach outside my comfort zone. I’ve dreamt of owning a small business for so long, and reaching for that goal is giving me the confidence to reach farther in all areas of my life. As Teddy Roosevelt once said “It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.” Of course, I don’t go around reading Theodore Roosevelt speeches in my spare time, but I do listen to Brene Brown’s Ted talks, and that speech was made famous once more when she featured it in one of her talks. She then wrote a book called Daring Greatly, and it sits, on my shelf, waiting to be read so I can meet my new years resolutions. But that speech, it inspires me daily. I never want to be a cold and timid soul who neither knows victory nor defeat. I choose to dare greatly, to reach for my goals, to look the fear of failure in the face and laugh. Life is far too short for the mundane, I want to live wholeheartedly (another Brene Brown reference- check out her podcast, it’s less effort than reading). Climb the mountain, get the tattoo, open the business, buy the property, post the video, take the trip, do the thing! You are the only obstacle to your success. If you want it, find a way to achieve it. This is turning into a string of cliches, but really, reach for your goals, no one else is going to do it for you.

I think so many of us suffer from imposter syndrome. We feel like we aren’t educated enough, or experienced enough, or worthy enough to be taken seriously. But if the age of social media has taught us anything, it’s that anyone and everyone can bring value to the world, even a grumpy cat or a “doge.” And when you do take a leap and try your “thing” you will see people climb out of the woodwork to support you. I shared a post about the cafe today on a couple Facebook groups, and boy did the love ever pour in! My analytics went off the charts, I’ve had more views on my page today than every other day combined! I don’t know these people, they are just helpful humans, supporting a budding entrepreneur and looking forward to a new place to buy a latte. And I can’t wait to meet them all! As I’ve said before, share your passion with the people and good things will come. The more you put yourself out there, the more like-minded people you will find.

One of my biggest supporters at the moment is an amazing woman that I met back in November. I was covered dust, screwing two-by-fours into a soon-to-be wall when I heard a knock at the door. Moving into a building in the downtown core of a city struggling with a housing, mental health and drug crisis had me concerned about who my neighbours might be. In particular, my patio connects directly to my next door neighbours patio, and before meeting them I was already planning on how to block the pathway. When Nicole and her daughter entered my little construction zone all my neighbour fears immediately dissipated. Since meeting back in November, we have spent Christmas, New Years and my son’s birthday together. In fact, on my son’s birthday I was feeling so sick that we had to call off bowling; Nicole offered to have my son over to her place to watch a movie on her projector with her and her daughter so I could nap! I’m a big overshare-er as I believe if you can’t handle all of me it’s better to find out sooner than later. In meeting Nicole I felt so comfortable that I shared just about everything right upfront, and she didn’t even bat an eye. She accepted me for all the messy bits, the complicated bits, and every bit in between. That’s the kind of people I want in my tribe! We’ve enjoyed tobogganing, fires on my deck, shared clothes and treats and she’s been the biggest supporter of my budding business. I had started noticing random people following my business Facebook stage in the early days before I’d shared the link much at all. Nicole explained she had been sharing the link with all of her friends! A couple weeks back she stopped by to take a picture of the progress at the cafe and shared it to her page, gaining me new followers once again. I’m blown away at the genuine kindness and support I’ve received from her. Life has a crazy way of placing just the right people in your path sometimes.

All of these positive vibes and exciting changes have motivated me in so many ways. On Saturday I was up at 5:45 am; I drank my Blume latte and decided to go for a little hike. I got to the Coquitlam Crunch parking lot at 7:30 am, timing it just right to reach the peak of the climb right at sunrise. I soaked in the cotton candy cloud views on the ascent and stood, watching that beautiful golden ball crest over the mountain range while my heart filled with gratitude. I hope one day we can put together a Good Wolf Pack hiking club. I’d love to climb mountains with like-minded people; reaching new peaks and growing my tribe.

This week I encourage you all to set some goals, share your passions and find your tribe; chase the sunrise and dare greatly! And, as always…

Be kind, take care, and feed your good wolf!

Thanks for reading friends,

Jerrica

All my heroes have done hard time

Hi Friends,

Happy Holidays, I hope you all are enjoying the spirit of the season. I know the holidays can be a tough time for many people, but I encourage you to find even the littlest of things to warm your heart. My son and I have enjoyed many walks in the neighbourhood, marvelling in the beauty of the famous bells that decorate the downtown core of Maple Ridge every December. We’ve strolled through Memorial Peace Park, and delighted in the decorations of lights more than once this year, but today, we walked with a different purpose. In an effort to spread a little cheer, we wandered over to Walmart (formerly Target, formerly Zellers) and purchased ten gift cards, $20 each. Then, armed with our gifts, we returned home to prepare the cards. Markus was in charges of decorating the envelopes while I filled each card with the following message “Happy Holidays! As you enter a New Year, please remember: 1. You are important 2. You are special 3. You are loved. Enjoy a gift on us!” We invited my Mom along for our adventure, and delighted at the idea, she went out and bought 10 instant noodle bowls to contribute.

Throughout our travels for the remainder of the day, we kept our eye out for neighbours who might appreciate a little cheer. We roamed alleys and back roads looking for friends who could put a Walmart gift card to good use. We saw some of the most beautiful smiles today; people who were truly appreciative and genuinely thankful. I hope to make this an annual tradition. I’d like to raise my son not to fear the man pushing the shopping cart full of belongings. I want him to know these are our neighbours, and they deserve every bit of respect that we would give any other neighbour. I want my son to smile at everyone, treat them with kindness, and maybe even stick around for a chat or to lend a helping hand when needed. Some of the greatest people I know have been through some of the toughest times, and I am raising my son to see the value in every human no matter where they’re at in their journey. Treating other humans, like humans, that is how we feed our good wolf.

It’s the truth, some of the greatest people I know have been through the toughest of times. In fact, some of the people I would consider my heroes have done the hardest of time, and by that I mean jail time. If you weren’t aware, I worked in Corrections for ten years prior to starting this journey into entrepreneurship. But don’t judge me on my past, I’ve come a long way since then. Now, I’m proud to say that some of my friends are former inmates, but boy are they so much more than that.

Let’s start with Fred. Fred is a friend of my Dad’s. When I met Fred up at his big property in the Shushwap I instantly felt connected to him. He is the kind of person that I could talk to for hours. Fred was an inmate in the jail I worked at, while I was working there. We have no real recollection of each other, but as far as timelines match up, we were definitely same place, same time. Fred has a checkered past riddled with addiction and crime. The Fred I know now is a devout Christian, dedicated AA host, and an incredible friend. Fred’s been there for me and my family through some very tough times. Every Christmas he’s delivered my Step Mom’s delicious holiday baking and a gift from Grandpa and Grandma for my son down to Maple Ridge. Fred and I have dreamed of using his big, beautiful property as a retreat for folks exiting the justice system; a safe place to land, to recharge, to prepare for the next stage in life. I hope one day Fred and I can work together to see that dream through, but for now he will support his community by starting up the first AA groups in the North Shushwap area.

Next is Nelson. Nelson was also in reds while I was still in blues (an inmate while I was an officer). Then, as fate would have it, he ended up as a client at the same non-profit where I worked. Nelson wasn’t a client for long though. He dedicated himself to mentoring other clients, enrolled in school, volunteered at shelters, and was hired on as a peer support worker. Nelson started a rather famous knitting program where he taught other clients “looming” and donated hundreds (more likely thousands) of toques to the homeless over the past two years. Knitting isn’t Nelson’s only act of service, he is constantly taking on projects, helping clients or friends. It’s not unusual for me to get an invite from Nelson to help pack and organize an elderly friends home to prepare them for an upcoming move on a Saturday afternoon. His looming program has been blasted all over the media, and I think it’s only scratching the surface of the things Nelson will come to achieve.

Then there’s Guy. Guy was a cleaner on one of the units I worked at Pretrial back in 2012. As he mopped the floors of the common area, he would tell me about how he wanted to become a motivational speaker some day. I told him to go for it, and I never forgot him. I found him years later on LinkedIn. A former inmate on LinkedIn was unheard of, Facebook maybe, but not LinkedIn. But Guy wasn’t any former inmate. After years battling addiction and the cycle of criminality Guy turned it all around. He was a two time TedX speaker. I was floored, I watched his talks intently and messaged him on LinkedIn telling him my recollection of that interaction so many years ago. This past summer, Guy was the guest speaker at the Annual General Meeting for the non-profit organization where I worked. I had the pleasure of enjoying a meal with him and chatting the night away. A few weeks later I had the pleasure of meeting his beautiful wife and three children. His wife is also a recovery advocate who tackles the troubling narrative of the “wine mom” culture, along with setting healthy boundaries and building self-confidence. Guy is the ultimate TSN turning point, seventh inning stretch comeback story. I am so proud to call him a friend.

Lastly, there’s Jason. I just met Jason, he’s my best friend’s boyfriend. Like the others, Jason wore reds while I wore blues. Today, Jason works through a non-profit organization as a Support Worker. He gets to use his experiences with crime and addiction to guide others in their journey. He’s a dedicated father and an awesome partner. I can’t wait to get to know him more and I’m so happy to see him making my dearest friend happy.

The thing is, not every one can be a success story. For every Fred, Nelson, Guy and Jason there’s a thousand others still on there journey that might not make it back to where society wants to see them. I sure have helped and believed in a few that weren’t ready for change. But I’ll never regret believing in a human that no one else saw the value in. I truly believe there is value in every human. Every one is worthy of kindness and support. Every one is important. Every one is special. Every one deserves to be loved.

So this holiday season, I hope you will feed your good wolf by treating others with the kindness and respect they deserve, no matter where they’re at in their journey.

Thanks for reading friends.

Be kind, take care and feed your good wolf.

Happy Holidays!

Jerrica

Glowing Mountains & Grateful Hearts

Hi Friends!

Did you see the mountains today? They are literally glowing. If by some miracle I’ve gained an international following, and you don’t live local, I mean the Golden Ears mountain range. The fresh fallen snow that has graced the peaks of the Ears is illuminated in the sliver of sunshine that we’re seeing today. The Golden Ears mountains have always held a special place in my heart. Every year when the first snowfall touches the peaks I am moved by their beauty. Most years I call my Mom to announce their new season of splendor, but most times she’s spotted them even before me. My Mom is the one who passed on her love of the mountains. For years she volunteered for Search and Rescue, and has always been an avid hiker and cyclist. She would pick me up after school in her rusted out Ford as early as Kindergarten and take me down the winding roads leading to the gate-keeping sheep (if you know, you know) to park at the trail heads of the Golden Ears mountains. We hiked most days, and when we didn’t we rode bikes along the dikes, which offer a picturesque perspective of the mountains. As a kid, I didn’t appreciate them so much; I would drag my feet and complain at times, but over the years the love for those mountains grew.

Some days when I would drive into work I would crane my neck, nearly driving off the Pitt River bridge to take in their beauty. When I bought my first house I had a could see them from both my bedroom and living room windows. Now, in my little condo I have a magnificent view of the mountains from every window, and most importantly the patio. Those mountains fill my heart with gratitude. When everything seems to be going mad in the world, those mountains never move. They stand strong, and beautiful, only changing with the seasons to show you different sides of their dynamic personality. When I drive in different directions I like to notice how their perspective changes, or rather my perspective of them. On my 28th birthday my sister and I hiked to the summit of the Golden Ears mountain. In 12 hours we ascended the West Canyon Trail 22 km up, past Alder Flats, gaining 1695 m of elevation along the way to very peak of those glorious mountains, before stumbling our way back down to our car for a victory meal at The Black Sheep pub. It was a lifelong goal for me to summit those beauties, and I couldn’t have been more honoured to do it with my sister by my side. A year later I commemorated the journey by having a mountain range tattooed on the inside of my arm.

Those mountains fill my heart with gratitude on a daily basis, and today, while moving my new display cooler into my tiny cafe, my Mom pointed out the view. From behind the counter, The Good Wolf Cafe has a perfect view of the Golden Ears mountains. It was the perfect reminder that even though things like building a business can be tough, and frustrating at times, I must remember to feel grateful.

One thing that I have been immensely grateful for during this process has been the support and generosity from unsuspecting strangers, and today was the perfect example of just this. Today I met Joe Allard, a local business owner, actor and craftsman. Joe owns Iron Raven Fitness in Port Coquitlam. He also owned Raven’s Grub Hub, but shut down through COVID. I found Joe when he was selling a piece of equipment on Facebook. While making arrangements to pick up the equipment, I was taken aback with how generous and kind Joe presented. Not only did he give me a great deal on the cooler, he also helped load, unload, deconstruct and reconstruct the piece until it was perfectly in place; Joe gave me recommendations for suppliers, offered to sell me other equipment, and has invited me back to build custom shelving in his new workshop. The world truly needs more people like Joe.

But Joe isn’t the only supporter. Daniel and Roseangela at Capri Cafe in Maple Ridge have inspired me since day one. Not only do they run a gorgeous cafe with the tastiest food, but they are also amazing humans. Before COVID I had tossed around the idea of opening the cafe, and dished my dreams to Daniel while ordering a London Fog. He invited me back to sit with him and his wife to cost out equipment and take a tour of his cafe, to help me get a better understanding of what I was getting into. Now that I’ve committed to opening, he’s stopped by to take in the layout, offer advice and suggest suppliers. Cindy at Once Upon a Tea Leaf (T’s) in Maple Ridge has also been amazing. She’s given me advice from her cappuccino bar days, and offered support and suggestions along the way. Cindy was also a major source of inspiration for The Nut, Jessica and Jason’s adorable cafe in the Brickwater Village development in Maple Ridge. They were super kind, offering advice, and explaining their experience in a recently opened cafe.

I can’t express enough gratitude for all the people I’ve connected with so far in this journey. What I’ve learned is how important it is to be authentic and share your passion everywhere you go. Find what you love, and shout it from those glowing mountain-tops. The more you share your passion with the world, the more chances you get to connect with like-minded people that will offer you support, encouragement and inspiration along the way. You’ll also find the other kind of people: the ones who doubt you, who challenge your abilities and question your commitment. This is all the more reason to persevere in your quest of authenticity, as it serves as an excellent filter for ridding your life of people who might dull your sparkle.

So today I ask you: what do you love? Do you take enough time out of your day to pour your heart into it? Do you tell everyone you meet about it? Do you feel gratitude for having it in your life? And, more importantly, when someone else shares their passion, do you cheer them on? Feed your good wolf by finding what you love, and shouting it from the mountain tops, and when you hear the calls of passion coming from a friend, shout right along with them!

P.S. Try to catch a glimpse of those beauties before the rain rolls in again!

Be kind, take care, and feed your good wolf.

Jerrica

feeling joy vs. foreboding joy

Hi friends,

I can’t thank you all enough for the support over the last week. The dream of entrepreneurship has been percolating in my mind since I was a kid, but the reality of the Good Wolf has been in the works since October. I have held off sharing the journey because of fear of failure. But last week I decided to commit to sharing my passion with my people, and boy did you people not disappoint. The kind words, messages, likes, follows and even my first merch purchase were beyond what I could have imagined. And that is a reflection of how I was feeling all weekend, thankful.

Gratitude certainly feeds my good wolf. And after preaching my passion with my people I was feeling abundant with gratitude and joy. I quit my job on Wednesday, and it felt great. I loved the organization I was working for, and look forward to supporting them in the future, but my heart wasn’t in it. I wanted to be pouring my energy into my business and my son. So I made it home in time for school pick up on Wednesday; no more sitting in traffic wishing I could part cars like the Red Sea to make it to daycare faster. Thursday was a half-day for school, and work-free I was able to pick Markus up and enjoy some skateboarding in the sunshine. Friday was a parent-teacher conferences, and boy did my kid ever crush it! If straight A’s were a thing in Kindergarten he’d would’ve had them, and he got moved up to the next level in Taekwondo too[ (shout-out to Bateson’s Martial Arts). To top it off we went skating Friday, and both had a blast. I couldn’t conceal my smile, I was proud of my son, grateful for my home, and excited for our future.

So Friday night, when my son went off to his Dad’s for the weekend I went out to Rona, bought a string of patio lights and a propane tank and set up my fire pit on the patio. I enjoyed a couple beverages alone under the stars (I’m pretty sure they were just planes, it was super foggy) while the Christmas lights in town twinkled in the distance. But as I sat there doing my best to soak in the happy, I felt a familiar old force creeping in like a dark cloud threatening a clear day. I didn’t deserve to be this happy, who was I to revel in all these pleasant feelings? What was coming next? Will my business fail? Will I lose my apartment? Oh god, am I going to die in a high speed crash?! Here I was doing my best to feed my good wolf, feeling grateful, soaking in the joy, and along came the other wolf, skulking in to steal the moment. My other wolf, he likes to forbode joy. When I feel happy my other wolf likes to come along and tell me I don’t deserve it: I’m not worthy; something bad is going to happen.

I went to bed that night feeling out of sorts. Saturday I tried to shake it off by focusing on making merch and offered to help a friend by working at his hot dog stand in the evening. ( Side note, if you haven’t tried Lully’s hot dogs in Abbotsford, what are you even doing with your life? New York imported, foot long hot dogs on custom made pretzel buns with homemade sauces - I like mine with Chili Mayo and Stolen Onion Jam. You can find him in the Abbotsford Canadian Tire parking lot sometimes- good luck with that. But, lucky for you he now has a permanent stand at the Abbotsford Canucks Arena, and is open during all home games. He’s also a pretty rad guy who donated a kidney to a customer. Just make sure to wear a Manchester United jersey and ask for extra ketchup! Who knows, you may even see me there.) Sunday was about the same, chip away at business things, hot dog stand, and then hockey. Monday is when it all came crashing down. I was out running errands with my Mom when I received a panicked call from my stepmom, my dad had had a stroke. I buried my emotions while speaking with her, assuring her he would be okay. But as soon as I got off the phone panic set in, I wandered the store fidgeting with the items in my hands, lost in my head, until finally at the check out I passed my purchase to my Mom and told her I had to step outside. I melted into a ball of anxiety in the car, and carried the weight with me for the rest of the day.

It wasn’t till later that night, speaking with a dear friend as I explained this whole “foreboding joy” concept that I felt some clarity. The first thing they had said was “why don’t you deserve to be happy?” The second thing they said was “don’t think like that or you’re going to manifest that negativity into your life.” Of course, these are things I know. They’re things we all know. But sometimes we need a reminder. Something to let us know it’s time to kindly show our other wolf out.

Today I received updates that my Dad is doing better. He is recovering in hospital and has regained mobility in his affected arm. There are so many things in life we can control. There are things that take hard work, a humble demeanor and grit to build or to overcome'; but then there are things in life that we cannot control, and in those moments the only thing we can control is our reactions. When life throws you curve balls, and you feel the spiral set in, which wolf would you rather join you on the journey? For me, the other wolf always tries to sneak his way in. He encourages my anxiety, flames my self-doubt and will catastrophize every event into the worst-case scenario. But when I choose to feed my good wolf instead I remember to think positive, find the silver lining and allow myself to process each emotion in a healthy way.

If you’ve made it this far I sincerely appreciate your patience. Thank you for reading friend.

Be kind, take care, and feed your good wolf!

Jerrica

Feed your good wolf

Hi friends,

Thanks for taking the time to drop by and check out our website. I keep saying “our”, but it’s really just me. That’s the scary part of this big adventure, there’s no more big corporation signing my pay cheques, there’s no HR team guiding my hiring practices or policies and procedures dictating how I go about my business. It's all just me. But I’m at a point in my life where I’m ready to take a chance. I believe I am worthy, I am capable, I am ready to build something I’m proud of, and that my son can be proud of too.

So first off, who am I? My name is Jerrica, and I am a single Mom to my amazing son Markus. My whole goal with building The Good Wolf is to build something that can allow me to work around my son’s schedule. For years I’ve worked in jobs that have kept me tied to hours that I just don’t want anymore. Driving home sitting in traffic each day on my way to pick him up from after school care my heart would break wishing I could be home with him sooner, and I’m hoping this little cafe will allow me to do just that. In addition to being a mother, I now consider myself a bit of a handy-woman, as I just purchased us a little condo and renovated it myself with the guidance and oversight of my amazing brother-in-law and friend (shout-out to Will and Tyler). I also enjoy playing ice hockey on my inappropriately named ladies team every Sunday night. Prior to my jump into the world of business ownership I worked in law enforcement for ten years. I was a Correctional Officer, then a Supervisor in our local provincial men’s Correctional facilities, then I managed a halfway house through a non-profit organization for the last year and half in Surrey, BC. While working as a Correctional Officer I had an opportunity to teach programs to the inmate population. It was in module 3 of the Substance Use Education program I taught that I first read the legend of two wolves. At the back of the book the story read…

“ONE EVENING, AN ELDERLY
CHEROKEE BRAVE TOLD HIS
GRANDSON ABOUT A BATTLE THAT
GOES ON INSIDE PEOPLE.

HE SAID "MY SON, THE BATTLE IS
BETWEEN TWO 'WOLVES' INSIDE US ALL.
ONE IS EVIL. IT IS ANGER,
ENVY, JEALOUSY, SORROW,
REGRET, GREED, ARROGANCE,
SELF-PITY, GUILT, RESENTMENT,
INFERIORITY, LIES, FALSE PRIDE,
SUPERIORITY, AND EGO.

THE OTHER IS GOOD.
IT IS JOY, PEACE, LOVE, HOPE, SERENITY,
HUMILITY, KINDNESS, BENEVOLENCE,
EMPATHY, GENEROSITY,
TRUTH, COMPASSION AND FAITH."

THE GRANDSON THOUGH ABOUT
IT FOR A MINUTE AND THEN ASKED
HIS GRANDFATHER:

"WHICH WOLF WINS?..."

THE OLD CHEROKEE SIMPLY REPLIED,
"THE ONE THAT YOU FEED”

- this version is from www.nanticokeindians.org

The legend stuck with me. To be clear, I have no native in my lineage. This business is indigenous-inspired, NOT indigenous owned. If you are interested in supporting local indigenous businesses and content creators some of my favourites include:

Spirit Bear Coffee Company (who we’re hoping to carry in our cafe) spiritbearcoffeecompany.com

Tia Wood @tiamiscihk on Instagram (such an amazing voice)

Mr. Bannock (to be clear, I’m not sure if I have had Mr. Bannock specifically, but basically if I see bannock I buy it. Whether that’s at my local Farmer’s Market or on the side of the road. Mmmm, bannock!) mrbannock.com

If you know of other local indigenous businesses please send me a message, I’d love to check more out!

So how did I go from a baton-carrying badass to a tiny cafe owner-to-be? As much I appreciated my career in Corrections, my heart grew beyond the boundaries of the job. I cared more about the humans we called “inmates” than I did about any policy or my pay cheque. That realization was what took me from working within the institution to working in the community. But still, I longed for something more. I dreamed of bringing the good wolf concept into fruition. My plan is to be much more than a cafe. Through social media and this blog, I’d like to share with you all how I choose to “feed my good wolf” each day. I want to share positivity with the world. We will be incorporating donations into our sales structure. We will feature different charities, causes, and non-profit organizations to support every month. In the beginning, it will be only myself and my (amazing, supportive, beautiful) Mom working the cafe, however, in time if we need additional support I would like to focus on hiring people with barriers to employment, as well as youth interested in careers in entrepreneurship.

I want the Good Wolf to become a valued part of the community. Somewhere you can go not only for great coffee and tasty food, but also to feed your good wolf by supporting local business and donating to a worthy cause.

Thanks for reading along friends!

Be kind, take care, and feed your good wolf!

Jerrica